Gaining the momentum

A lot of good things are happening and I can not be happier even with the chemo effects working in me. First of, my insurance approved me for the transplant just in time for this chemo to be considered the mobilization chemo – which means I don’t have to do another chemo to collect the cells – this chemo is it! Second, the cocktail was pretty good on me – I must say this was the best chemo I’ve had. I know it works as I feel my lymph nodes and my body hurts again but I am almost used to it; and I don’t have the other bad side effects such as nausea, dizziness and extreme exhaustion.

More importantly, something’s changed in me. Not sure how to describe it and sometimes I feel there are no words that would express all that we are going through, yet today I came across this passage – it sums it well:

“Do not grieve at the afflictions and calamities that have befallen thee. All calamities and afflictions have been created for man so that he may spurn this mortal world – a world to which is he is much attached. When he experienceth severe trials and hardships, then his nature will recoil and he will desire the eternal realm – a realm which is sanctified from all afflictions and calamities.”

I am above my illness and the tribulations it has brought onto us – I see the eternal Beauty above and it’s worth any pain.