random choppy thoughts

So I am sick again .. this time entire family is down (even Raymond). Andryusha is already recovering nicely and I am just lagging behind.
I know I can't complain but honestly, sometimes I wonder when will I feel normal again ... I so easily get sick it scares me.

Some other mixed news - we will be going to Belize to see Raymond's mom who is becoming rather forgetful. We are very concerned if she is developing an early Alzheimer's.... but I've been so tired lately I haven't had much chance to read up on the symptoms and potential treatment. If someone knows about it more (and what to do to slow down the process) please e-mail. I am excited to visit Belize again, it is such a beautiful place and the people are so wonderful.

And since this is turning into a rather sad post... I will add the another daunting piece of info... one of our fellow Hodge members lost her fight a few days ago. Anne-Marie was among the first people I got to meet on the Hodgkins's forum board and her insightful perspective was always encouraging and supportive. I will also remember her for the special words she wrote for Andryusha's b-day (he will read it when he turns 15). Gush, I just feel down even though I know we all have to go through this sooner or later. Besides, two of one good friends were recently diagnosed with cancer (one lung and one breast cancer) -- both came as a shocker to us. In the end, I guess we have to celebrate life in all it's forms - when it starts and when it goes. And speaking of celebrations ... Raymond along with some of our close friends in Austin threw a surprise 'Life Celebration' party for me a week ago. I wasn't prepared for any speech or gifts and got really emotional but it was really great to see all the friends who have supported us during the hard days. It was nice to be able to thank them all officially -- we had a great time.

Oh, and more exciting news ... I became a "First connection" volunteer for the Lymphoma and Leukemia Society. I always wanted to help and give back in some way and this seams to be the perfect opportunity for me -- I can talk to newly diagnosed patients over the phone and provide the so much needed support and encouragement.